Why is it that I always seem to be looking back, with regret, wishing I had done something differently. At the same time, I walk step by step through the day, every day, because that’s life. Then, something will set my mind racing in the other direction – ahead – to the unknowable and often fear-inducing future. What if…
This spring, I reconnected with my cousins from the UK – we had a short but fun visit, the highlight, for me, was a day trip to Niagara Falls. In June, I had another flood (yes, my washing machine, again!). I finally bought new machines but am now faced with replacing all my flooring, again, sometime next year. Balcony restoration work in my condo building meant no access to my lovely balcony all summer. With cooler fall weather comes a super-busy and challenging season at my job. Soon Christmas will be here. Where does the time go?
I confess, I have been feeling a bit sorry for myself, with various struggles. And I have been lazy to write any blog posts, though I have enjoyed my fellow sojourners. Today, I received an email notification of a posting from a fellow Christ follower and blogger, Bill, who has faced much greater challenges, but maintains hope and joy. I think of people like Nick Vujicic and Joni Eareckson Tada, their challenges and pain and progress, and I remember that we serve a big God, who loves us, and can bring good out of any situation His beloved children face. So my chin is up, there’s a smile on my face, I whisper a prayer for Bill and Mary and their family, for their struggles – read about them here
and I resolve to let go of my regrets, to persevere and press on toward the goal…
I face regrets all the time. No matter how I prepare myself to face each day, there is always something I wish I had or hadn’t done or said.
My blog has suffered this year from my busy schedule and the fact that so many people I follow have disappeared or stopped writing. Yet, I am just as guilty. I may be running out of anything valuable to contribute. But I keep the blog for those times when I do want to express something to the world.
As 2019 begins, I want to tell you how much I value you and your posts, Vera. You are one reason I am still here.
His Blessings (however presumptuous of me it is to invoke them).
Thank you for your kind words, Beth. I have missed your posts so glad you’re inching back into the blogosphere. I value your words and pictures, and your intelligence and honesty, and I know you are ‘living’ a rich meaningful life so there isn’t always time to write about it 🙂 God is good and I bless you to enjoy that goodness in whatever form He offers it in 2019!
I appreciate that blessing, Vera. I hope I have the wisdom to recognise God’s goodness and benevolence bestowed on me, when it comes. It is often easy to feel the weight of His lessons without learning from them. I am working on it every single day.
This year, I will try to be more diligent about blogging, as I don’t want to lose more friends here.